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Time flies so fast..

We finally reached the end of February, which consists only 28 days.

This February seems to be a really meaningful month for me. Many things happened such as the Chinese New Year, start of time trials, broken heart, Valentine's Day, February OOTD, went to my old school, met up with teachers & freaks, and many moree. 

So I spent the end of February by doing time trials as always. However, I managed to hang out with some of my friends. It was not even weekend, we went to PIM after school. I know our exam is near, we're supposed to be studying not hanging out. 

Hello, do you know how many hours we spent at school in a month? Waking up at 6 AM, 7 hours for studying, 2 hours for time trials, another hours for tuition, home works, projects, many more (excluding eating, taking shit, thinking about life, etc.) until midnight, these lead to lack of sleep & rest, thus may results fatigue, sickness, excessive fat and depressed look on my face.

Worst part? 

Repeat the same stuffs everyday,for 20 days + we only got 8 days for break. -Peasant Life (School)

Whoa whoa we're getting out of topic here..

Okay, 

Since we had enough stress with school, we just wanted to refresh our minds and eyes by window shopping!!

So I (repeat) spent the end of February by doing time trials as always. However, I managed to hang out with some of my Japanese friends. They are Nanami & Mai (w w I love you guys :p). It was not even weekend yet, we went to PIM on Wednesday afterschool. 

First of all, we went to Forever 21. 
Nanami & Mai were all interested looking at the accessories section, while myself was looking for underwear.. lingerie.. what?

Anyway, 

I saw a pretty cute floral skirt (black with rose pattern), the price's affordable which costs me 119k IDR. Not bad, at least I have one more girly outfit for my poor wardrobe.

February OOTD

Hey everyone!!

I'm going to post OOTD for the month February. Also, check out the photoshoot and the video below. 

(KEEP SCROLLING DOWN FOR THE VIDEO)

Full Time Dreamers 

Last January, me & Maarsja planned to have a random photoshoot (just for fun) at my house, and we made an instagram video titled, "January OOTD". We got pretty nice responses, since then we decided to make a YouTube channel called "Maarsja Melrose (M&M)". So basically, we're going to make OOTD videos every month and post it in the channel, along with photoshoots which will be posted in my Facebook.

This month we have collab with Ivan Narendra!

Make sure to check them out :

❁ YouTube (M&M)

❁ Facebook

Dear Diary : Unspoken Truth

Dear diary, 

Let me tell you about my story,

I know it's rather sad,

but that's the way I feel..

...

"You see that girl? She looks so happy, right? Telling jokes, smiling, having a great time and... Dying inside. She's hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn't want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking. So she keeps it all inside. Acts like everything's perfect but cries at night. So everybody thinks that she's the happiest person they know. That she has no problems and her life is perfect. If only they knew the truth...

She's all broken inside, 

but no one will ever notice."

Blue Valentine

Valentine's Day is just a harsh reminder that I'm a forever alone.

It's 14th of February 2014 which means Happy Valentine's Day everyone ♡ 

For this year Valentine appreciation post, will be themed as "Blue Valentine". The blue in this term is related to Stitch (my divorced husband. jk) and blue represents my sadness for being single again this year plus I just got broken heart. 

Sad enough? No, look at my happy face.

Stitch will always be my soulmate ♡

Summary of Mel's love stories (since 1998) :

❥ In kindergarten, I fell in love with Stitch from "Lilo & Stitch" since then I watched all Stitch's movies (excluding the animated series).

❥ I liked this guy when I was in primary 6 but he already had a girlfriend (he liked me in P3 tho)

❥ In early puberty, I flirted a lot (whore). In primary 6, I almost dated a fag.

❥ In JHS, another years of being single, while everyone's started dating or having relationship. I had no interest in love nor guys at my school despite the K-Pop effect. I was a die hard Super Junior & TRAX lover, I would marry them ahjussi(s).

❥ Middle of year 2012, I had love at first sight with a Singaporean guy, after AYC in SG. I fell in love with his smile and his charm (for being friendly, etc). We met at the day before closing ceremony, which means we had to separate the next day. I didn't even manage to meet him appropriately and I didn't even say farewell on the last day. My feelings to him remain for almost half a year. The problem is, I was so desperate, I never expressed/told him my true feelings (until now lol). Fortunately, I still have his contact now, and still communicating. 

❥ I got broken heart recently and that would be my own fault for being so stupid. Read more...

Conclusion : I never had a boyfriend nor been in a relationship (until now). Everyone thinks I'm lying, but that's the sad truth. (YEAH I ALSO WONDER WHY I NEVER DATE FOR 15-16 YEARS.)

But I rarely fell in love with guys, in 15 years of my life I only like 3 guys. I admit, once I like someone it would be hard for me to let go and move on.

Maybe that's because I always have bad luck in relationship stuffs. You can see everytime I had a crush on someone, it always ended with nothing, either he's already in relationship, or didn't like me back or he didn't notice my feelings. Or that's just my fate to be Forever Alone. Haha sad ya..

Dear Diary : Broken Heart

"Dear diary,

Let me tell you about my story,

I know it's rather sad,

but that's the way I feel..

Lunar New Year 2014

Happy Lunar New Year 2014 to everyone who's celebrating  

or 

Happy Chinese New Year 2014 to be more specific. 

(Because not only chinese people celebrate the new new year, but I'm chinese so yeah! lol)

Greetings from me and my family in chinese :

新年快乐 (xīn nián kuài lè) - Happy New Year

身体健康 (shēn tǐ jiàn kāng) - May you always be healthy

万事如意 (wàn shì rú yì) - May everything is good

工作顺利 (gōng zuò shùn lì) - May work be better

祝大家有一个繁荣的农历新年

(zhù dà jiā yǒu yī gè fán róng de nóng lì xīn nián)

Wishing Everyone have a prosperity of Chinese New Year

Gong xi,

Gong xi ni

Yeay, tbh I don't even understand.. So let me clarify myself.

Dear people, I am Chinese. No, I am Indonesian with Chinese blood, it came from my ancestors and my entire family are all Chinese also.

However, some people often mistaken me as a Japanese, Thai, or even Vietnamese. Considering my big(ger) round eyes, my pointy nose, and my darker skin tone (if compared to my cousins). When I was little people thought my dad came from the state. I didn't mean to praise myself but that happened okay. I appreciate those people who thought so, haha thanks. But I am part of the chinese race, even I have chinese name with my initial "BPF". As what's written in my name everywhere, Burhan is my dad's family name, and originally the chinese name is Bong. However, they said it's Hokkien. idk..

I have a big family. My dad has 11 siblings, which means my grandparents managed to have 12 children. People back then are awesome ikr. In the family tree, me myself is the third youngest among all of my cousins. Most of my cousins are much older than me, they are all (young) adults now, they are in college, working and many are already married, have kids. Despite this, I was rather awkward to socialize with them because I was just a kid. Usually I would hang out with my cousin whom exactly only one year older than me. Luckily, my cousins are all nice and friendly :)

Anyway,

Melrose has been an aunty since 2004. Yes, I have adorable nephews and nieces. Compared to my older cousins they spend more time with the little ones while Melrose is still a baby herself. orz

Taking selfies with my adorable nieces, giving bad influences (duck face, miley cyrus tounge) btw they called me "Zombie".

In my big family, there's a cultural fusion, we have Japanese and Malaysian family members. I have cute Japanese niece and new born baby nephew. They have Japanese names, but still have to add "Burhan" as the last name. Sounds weird? No, that's awesome! Haha

It's Haruka chan (・ω・)ノ~

Look at who's wearing Yukata while others were wearing Cheongsam :")

So that's Haruka Yuna Burhan, she's 2 years old and growing so fast. When she came in yukata I literally wanted to take selfies with her, but she's a really shy girl, eventually I couldn't force her haha. But I could get to play with her, and she's really interested with Doggie!! She's a brave little girl, and ain't afraid of Doggie (my other niece used to be scared). 

As always Doggie loves to interact with girls and little kids, however he would get too hyper. 

Speaking about Doggie.. 

During CNY, every year I would put cheongsam outfit on Doggie 

he always stays by my side ♥ (exception:food)

Apparently since Doggie is getting fatter, the outfit didn't fit him comfortably, I could only attached 1 button out of three. It looks cute, however last year there was an incident on last year CNY when Doggie was wearing the clothes for whole day and later at night he couldn't walk, something was wrong with his front legs, maybe cramps(?) or keseleo. Then my dad had to massage him using chinese medicine. That's weird but that really happened. Now he's okay, but let's not put on tight clothes until he lost some fats :D

What about the clothes I wore for CNY? I don't have chinese clothes like Cheongsam and I barely have any red outfit, so I decided to wear the dress my parents bought me from Bandung during the new year's break.

taking pics on mirror, dat awkward-looking position..

So it's a peach pink coloured dress (matching with Patrick Star ♥), with pearl necklace accessory which was already included on the dress, and what I love the most from this dress is obviously the back part!! As you can see, the ribbons on the back are just so lovely. Overall, it's a pretty simple girly dress, considering my dresses are all black.

What did I do during the CNY?

During the day I nearly fell asleep, since my cousins haven't arrived that time, I took selfies and ended snoozing with Doggie in my room

I blurred half of my face okay.

Fortunately I didn't fall asleep and later my cousins start to came one by one. Unlike what we're supposed to do in CNY, us young people spend the day by playing gadgets, laptops, and myself was watching the AsNTM cycle 2 to waste time lol. 

Geez our young generation orz hahaha 

As time passed by, my body blamed me for starving myself. Here comes time for FOOD!! 

These are only some dishes served on CNY, I could only take these pics (before eaten).

I don't really know names of the food, but  as you can see like chicken, pork, veggies, etc. My favourite side dish is pastel (as we call it in bahasa haha). They are not complete without dessert, so there we have varieties of cake and kue lapis is my love! And of course there has to be ORANGES for CNY.

Finally, the most anticipated moment in CNY is when you collect the Angpao (red envelopes) from the adults! Since I have lot of relatives plus many of my cousins are married already, this year I got a lot of Angpao. 

*kaching!*

Those I received only from my dad's family. Unfortunately, I didn't receive any from my mom's family, considering they live in Pontianak, Borneo. But that's okay, I think I had enough hahahahaha. Luckily I also got some from my parents' friends. 

Wondering how much I got? 

...

Guess yourself :p

LOL

Now, what do you think on how should I spend the money?

A good student should spend his/her money to buy past papers for the upcoming IGCSE.

HAHAHA, I ain't gonna spend my money for past papers, I am not a good student orz. 

Anyway, I've been considering to get a Penny board and other stuffs for photography & recording my youtube videos.

Please look forward to my YouTube channel, Instagram account, and of course this blog. 

:)

So those are stuffs that I did during Chinese New Year 2014. I hope you had a great one. Wish you all luck, health, wealth, and happiness for you and your family! 

Thanks for reading!

selfie in CNY :)

1/Feb/2014

"新年快樂 - Gong Xi Fa Cai"