Hopeless Romantic

Okay let's have a honest post once in a while..

There are some things that bother me lately, probably why I really need a boyfriend of my own now. Someone who can protect me, or I can share with my secrets..

I wish that was my boyfriend..

In this world, there are many kinds of guy. Some are nice, naughty, funny, caring, but there are also jerks, perverts, rude guys, and many more. But those are some I've encountered in 16 years of my life.

I don't know how to be a sweet girl, but once you've known me deep enough, I'm probably the worst girl-friend ever, in terms of acting like an alien, super weird. 

I don't know why I have more guy friends than girls, I also question about my own gender. I'm physically female but not completely female with my mental and personality. Maybe because I'm more interested with boys' stuffs instead of girly or sassy stuffs.

Anyway..

I admit that, I treat every guy the same as a friend, so please understand that when I treat you nicely and caring, that's because I consider you as a friend. Well, I don't know about you but please don't get me wrong. I'm saying this because I just don't want to make anyone expecting too much or getting the wrong signal.

As for a relationship. 

I really don't know, even though I want to have a boyfriend, I don't feel like being in a relationship. Because I don't know how to be a girl, and I fell in love once, it was awful. Including all my past experiences which has never changed my status from single to something else, except "I'm hungry". 

I'm still immature and romantically awkward as well. Probably "the boyfriend" is gonna regret what a terrible choice he has made to ask me out. Unless he's a guy from Mars or he's a circus trainer. Idk, he must be really tough and patient to bear this worst girl-friend ever.

Pictures or me on screen can be deceiving, let me tell you to expect the unexpected. Because in reality I'm weird as hell and not as cute or elegant whatsoever. I do things normal girls don't do, I swear a lot, instead of shopping I prefer to stay at my house playing video games or just sleeping + eating, I don't like dressing up and most likely I'm not gonna attend my prom night which is most girls' dream. 

I wish that was my boyfriend..
PS : this is why I don't have a boyfriend.
that pic's taken 2 years ago btw

I bet no one's gonna ask me out and even if someone does, he's going to leave me once I've started eating. Then I'm just gonna stand in the corner or sleeping on my table or chillin' in the toilet. My first prom night, I was sick and literally dying on my table while everyone else was dancing. A night to remember? Yes, what a nightmare.

So far, anyone has changed their point of view already? Okay, let's continue the odds.

If you think Melrose has never been in a relationship is lie, you can see from the way I react to sweet talks or flirting, it's gonna be either awkward or sarcastic. However, maybe it's just me who hasn't met that special guy who's able to get my heart & attention. 

All we need is timing, but timing is a bitch. 

Oh well, every time I liked someone, that guy never liked me back, or else in the end I'm always the one who got hurt, alone. Though I notice that God has his own plan, and I believe he knows that I deserve someone who's much better than those guys. Thank God I didn't end up with a player like him. :)

Yes I'm still waiting until I meet that special someone. Even though, there were some guys, but please understand that I don't want such nice person end up with an alien like me, and I think they deserve a girl who's much more appropriate than me. Hey at least they're gonna have longer life span without me. It's not that I friend-zoned anyone but I just want all the best for them. :)

Oh right, now I forgot to mention, below are the things which bother me lately : 

* PLEASE DON'T FORCE ME TO FOLLOW BACK ON INSTAGRAM. 
If I want to, I'll do it already. I told everyone that you can stalk me anytime, I don't mind, but don't expect me to follow you back especially when you force me to do so or your instagram is filled with your selfies 24/7.

* DON'T ASK FOR MY LINE/WHATSAPP NUMBER WHEN YOU CAN'T KEEP UP CHATTING WITH ME. 
At first we were chatting then boom we stopped forever. THAT'S DISAPPOINTING, I'm hurt. 
FYI yes I tend to reply late, but that's the consequence.

* I DON'T CARE HOW FUCKING RICH OR HANDSOME YOU ARE BUT IF YOU TREAT ME LIKE A WHORE, YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A DICK, NOT EVEN A MAN. 
There are milions of nice guy who are not as good looking or hot as you but they know how to respect a girl and they are way more fun than a jerk like you who's horny and only get advantages from girl for your own lust and shit. Sweet talk is cheap but respect is more than anything. 

I judge guys from their personality, their kindness and not from the looks. Useless when you're good looking or hot as hell but actually you're just a piece of shit. I way more appreciate guys who are kind, silly, innocent or naughty as long he treats me as a female, with respect.

Oh anyway, before I end this long post that has wasted few minutes of your life, below are my another trivia about my ideal type of guy haha~

BONUS :
NOTE : 
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO READ IS CONTENT OF MELROSE'S DREAM BOYFRIEND.
DO CLOSE THIS TAB UNLESS YOU DON'T MIND WASTING ANOTHER FEW MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE.

Here are the signs when Melrose is in love with someone :

- Acts differently towards him than every other male

- Weird faces 

- Acting like a baby

- Being weak

- Less swearing

- Bright glowing eyes

- Smiles all the time

- High screech in front of you

- Higher voice-tone when speaking

- Stay awake all night just to talk with you

- Replies texts faster

- Replies at least once every hour 

- No excuses (most likely)

- Showing off

- Acting awkwardly sweet

- Dressing as girly as possible

- Occasionally wears make up

- Eating properly in front of you

But actually not really, never done that to anyone but my imaginary boyfriend (the wall, fish, Stitch, pillow, computer screen, mychonny)

For those who's been wondering what kind of guy I'm looking for,

I have standards for myself and I do have ideal type of my guy :

- He should be taller than me, but not too tall (preferably 170 - 178cm)

- He should be older than me, can be mature, and a leader figure (preferably max 5 years older)

- He should be (at least) okay in his studies

- Someone who plays sports and can play music instruments (guitar is my favourite)

- He should be able to watch horror/thriller/gore movies

- I prefer guys who don't smoke, or I'm gonna make you stop :p

- He should be able to take care of himself in hygiene and guy-fashion

- He should be brave and can be protective

- He doesn't have to be a really nice guy, tho he should be the bad guy who can be nice to me

- He doesn't have to be all sweet or romantic, but at least he's caring

- He should be honest to me about everything he feels

- He should be able to bear all my weirdness, randomness, and I'd like him to be someone I can be awesome with

- He can be pervert (naughty) yet must know limits and respects me as a female

- He should accept me for whoever I am, loves me more for the inside than outside

- He should understand that I like to swear, sleep, eat, fap, zombies, horror movies, and pokémon

Likes :

- I like it when guys text me first

- I like athletic/fit guys, nice in shape

- Guys who can be romantic and protective

- Guys who don't mind accompanying me doing girly stuffs

- Guys who's caring towards other people, and not two-faced with me

- Guys whom I can chat with fun topics like video games, girls, or pervert puns

- Guys who's normally comical, spontaneous, and funny, but can be serious at times

- Guys who can be consistent and able to keep the conversation goes on, without awkwardness

- Guys who can keep up with my long talks, or my sad stories, and give me advices / caring words

Dislikes :

- Pushy guys 

- Moody (cry baby)

- Bad odor & hygiene

- Pervert guy who's horny all the time #dick

- Guy who smokes, drinks, clubbing all the time

- Guys who are impatient, immature, arrogant, and rude

My bucket list with him :

Someday I would like to... 

- Chill with my boyfriend, staying at home, chilling together, watching movies, or play video games

- Take selfies with derp face
- Cook food / do some fun crafts together
- Do YouTube challenges, and record our own videos
- Portraits of our heights, how tall he is and how short I am (cutest thing I can imagine!!)
- Travel together, along with friends, somewhere outside the city
- Stargazing, lay back on the ground under the night sky, away from crowds
- Stay with him forever and always.

These are only my dream ideal type of guys, NO ONE IS PERFECT, and I know not everyone can be like that, but I'm just telling that's my ideal type of guy and what I expect for anyone who can be my special someone :)

My ideal type of guy, without any written description would be John Luc a.k.a mychonny (YouTuber). He's not that handsome or what, he's chubby!! But I like him so much based on his funny spontaneous personality. Someone like him would always cheer me up and make me smile everyday awww. I just want him to be my boyfriend NOW. HAHAH

currently not having any crushes either, geez

Anyway, whenever you feel alone, don't be, because I'm a forever alone too.
Then we're not actually alone!! We can be "Forever Alone" together! LOL

I wish that was my boyfriend..

Thanks for reading!!
Have a nice day, don't stop believing :)



28/May/2014
"Being alone is better than being with the wrong person."