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August 26, 2014

Counting Stars

I have this little obsession of stars and the universe, and it all somehow relate with dreams.
paper star!

Every morning you have two choices :
1. To sleep with your dreams
2. Wake up and chase them

Although I dream so big and fall so hard.. Dreams do come true, if only we wish hard enough. You can have everything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it.

As I am a dreamer who sees possibility everywhere. Everything seems dreamy yet it's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.

The thing is, I just wanna go on more adventures, be around good energy, connect with people, learn new things, and grow. But for in dreams, we enter a world that is entirely our own. And sometimes I just wanna ran away in my sleep and dreamed of paradise like Neverland.
"You know that place between sleep & awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? 
That's where I will always love you, that's where I'll be waiting. So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. 
Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on winds, forever, in Never Land!  
You can run away with me anytime you want." says Peterpan.

Neverland is not so far. Second star to the right and straight on till' the morning.
And the rest is rust and stardust.
Sometimes I realized none of it was real and set myself free.
"She believed in dreams all right, but she also believed in doing something about them..When Prince Charming didn't come along, she went over to the palace and got him."
The moon danced with the stars in the night you were born.
Every night I look up at the freckled sky and fall in love with the universe all over again.
I say nothing at all, but simply stare upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.

But stars can't shine without darkness.
The thing about stars, is what makes me not afraid of the dark anymore.

Beautiful things happen in the dark.
When the sun goes to sleep,
when the stars give light kisses,
when the moon is a spotlight.
Life stays beautiful even when you are covered in darkness.

You know the sky is so tragically beautiful, a graveyard of stars.
I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night and I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.



Look at the stars,
look how they shine for you.

There are millions and millions of tiny stars in the open night sky. But there's always that one star that shines brighter than the others, and you to me, you are that star.

There are times when I feel like I'm losing you and I see you glide even further to hide behind other stars, but I don't worry.
I have the constellations mapped out on my heart.

Every time you look at the stars, it's like opening a door. You could be anyone, anywhere. You could be yourself at any moment in your life. You open that door and you realize you're the same person under the same stars camping out in the backyard with your best friend, stopping at the edge of the city, looking up at the same stars, walking a wooden path, staring out at the back window of a car, and stuff. Out here where the world begins and ends, it's like nothing ever stops happening.

But all I ever wanted was for you to look at me as if you were the night sky and I was your only star. If I had a star for every time you made me smile, I'd have the whole sky right here in the palm of my hand. I swear, you could create galaxies with the stars in your heart and I swear in that moment we were infinite.

To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine the brightest. Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise.

For now I'll be waiting up, counting the stars.

Touch your heart, close your eyes.
Make a wish, say goodnight.
Sky so wide, stars so bright.
Off the lights, sleep so tight.


26/Aug/2014
"And I'd choose you; 
in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, 
I'd find you and I'd choose you."
- The Chaos of Stars

August 9, 2014

One of a Kind

This post is specially dedicated to one of my best friend, Maarsja Mumu. I think this name might sound familiar to some of my blog readers, as you see that she's been mentioned a few times on my blog itself.

February OOTD

Maarsja is my close friend since Junior High. She's absolutely gorgeous, loveable, multi-talented, and smart. Since she's pretty much like me, in terms of "hipster material" and fun, we've been spending our time to collaborate and make our own little photoshoots until making our own YouTube channel. If you didn't know, we did a cover of 2NE1's Come Back Home which is uploaded in March, and now reaching 1.7k views soon!! Check it out here ~


Anyway, I still remember how we met for the first time, not to mention the first sentence that I told her hahahaha.. She was like a transfer student despite coming late in the middle of term 1. She told me that I look "arrogant" or something like bitchy but trust me, I'm not lol. Then we just started talking about K-pop and since then we began to get closer as a friend. Even though we were not very close until grade 8. Actually it's not only Maarsja, because we have this "clique" consisting of me, Maarsja, Vanessa, and Ivan (which are all featured in my OOTD posts). We might be a little bit different compared to the other kids at school, considering that we ALWAYS hang out and have our lunch TOGETHER every single day. To be honest, we don't think ourselves as the popular kids, yet we're so proud being called "freaks" due to our quirkiness yet always fun just like happy go lucky.

We are known for our own home-made parties that we plan and organize just by ourselves, yeap future event organizers we have here hahaha. So far we've held our annual Halloween Party, Valentine Party, and my batch's Farewell Party. But our favourite one will always be the Halloween Party which has been going for 4 years straight and hopefully this year we're able to hold another one. The venue is of course my house hahahaha.

I'm so happy that I can get to know those awesome people, and I'm still grateful that I'm friends with them, especially we still hang out often ever since we graduated Junior High School although we went to different schools..

Now unfortunately I just heard this shocking news that Maarsja is moving to Singapore for her further studies.. She informed me this just a few days before her departure. Luckily I managed to meet her for the last time during last week dinner with bae, but that's not even an appointment and I still had no idea this is gonna happen. So that was our last meeting and I didn't even know that's a "farewell meeting" because we planned to hang out again this Saturday..
I didn't have time to say proper farewell or give any goods or even a hug, so that all I can do is just by texting followed by this appreciation post (also instagram). I'm still shocked, disappointed, and sad at the same time.. My mind was totally not prepared for this farewell, because one of the people that I hang out with - the most is leaving to another country. Even though she said that she's gonna come back yet it might be to another country, that's even worse right. Haha this girl tsk tsk..


All I can say is that, I will never forget all the fun memories we've been through together. Like our super random Skype calls, stories about our crushes, that awkward tumblr photoshoot, recording our cover during blackout and many moree. Although I still have one more thing to do with Maarsja in my bucket list, that is to Penny boarding together with another fun photoshoot. Sigh.. I guess it has to be delayed until we meet again next time. But it's a promise, okay? :)

Afterall, we didn't realize we were making memories while we were just having fun.

I've learned that sometimes you just have to let go. Some people are meant to be in your life forever, some aren't. Friends come and go, so does a best friend. But best friends will always find their way back. Good friends are like stars in the sky. You may not always see them, but you know they're always there.

As I grow up, I realize it is less important to have lots of friends, and more important to have real ones. A best friend isn't someone who's just always there for you. It's someone who understands you a bit more than you understand yourself.

Even though we change and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not still friends.

So here's to...
the crap we talk,
the guys we stalk,
the way we hang out,
laughs we can't stop,
the gossip we spill,
the looks that could kill,
the random skype calls,
the awesome song covers,
super fun photoshoots,
home-party preparations,
infinity memories,
endless friendship..

One million memories, ten thousand jokes, one hundred shared secrets, countless fun & laughter, one reason, best friend.


Twenty years from now, I am gonna look back and remember that you were that one person who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words; that person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself, that one person who carried tears on her shoulders after every fight, every break up; that one person that accepted every decision I made, that one person who knew who I really was and that one person that made the biggest difference in my life.. my best friend.

I won't say "goodbye" because goodbyes make me sad. But I will say "farewell" and be happy for what we had. So many days, so many nights, so many chats.
Thinking to myself I hope this friendship lasts forever.
I just hope and pray that someday later we'll meet again.
As you walk away and I say "farewell".

I wish you all the best for your new journey, I hope this can be your opportunity to improve yourself for your success in the future. Stay healthy, smart, and gorgeous.

Because you are one of a kind, and you'll always be one of my favourite girl in a lifetime.
I'll never say goodbye because, I know that someday we WILL meet again and have fun like we used to.


So long Maarsja, until we meet again! :)

PS : PLEASE ADMIT THAT YOU ARE GORGEOUS, MULTI-TALENTED, AND SMART. JUST SAY YES. You are terlalu merendahkan diri! Hahahaha I love you!!



07/Aug/2014
"Friends come and go, so does a best friend.
But best friends will always find their way back."

August 3, 2014

Crazy Little Thing Called LOVE



Have you ever just looked at someone and thought, "I love you so much". They're just talking or walking or watching a movie or eating ice cream or laughing or something, and there's something about them in that moment that makes you think 
, "I just love you so much".


We fall in love with personality, the words they say and their behaviour the thoughts and opinions the moments you make and remember we lust with our eyes and love with our hearts.

I would say it is completely possible to fall in love with someone without having a physical contact because it is a pure, raw love of them;who they are and what they're about.

If you ever fall in love... 
Fall in love with someone who wants to know your favourite colour and just how you like your coffee. Fall in love with someone who loves the way you laugh and would do anything to hear it. Fall in love with someone who puts their head on your chest just to hear your heart beat. Fall in love with someone who hugs you in public and is proud to show you off to anyone they know. Fall in love with someone who makes you question why you were afraid to fall in love in the first place. Fall in love with someone who would never ever want to hurt you. Fall in love with someone who falls in love with your flaws and think you're perfect just the way you are. Fall in love with someone who thinks that you're the one they would love to wake up to each day.

Find someone...

Who'll never get tired of kissing you everyday.
Who'll hug you when you're jealous.
Who'll understandingly keep silent when you're mad.
Who'll squeeze your hand when you're not in the mood.
Who'll plan and imagine the future with you in it.
And when you find that somone, 
JUST NEVER LET GO.

Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. You could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they won't judge you. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Don't ever let them go.


"I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you - just as you do not expect from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down - not just when you're fun to be with. 

"I love you" means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you from them - asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me.

And it's not what I feel for you, it's for what I don't feel for anyone but you.
Don't call me obsessed when I'm only afraid of losing the best thing that ever happened to me. 
I love you Bae, to the moon and back.



03/Aug/2014

"He's not the only guy in the universe,
but he's the only one that matters for me."