TRICK OR TREAT

Hello there! 

Long time no post right? Sorry not sorry - for not updating lol

Okay the reason that I didn't post much this month is because I freaking hate October! This month has been a long ride nightmare for me as I literally have more sad days than happy days during those 31 days. Such as my relationship almost ruined, JC life has gone worse, too many tests and assignments, communication problem with Bae, and bleh many more. As a result, I've been freaking stressed out and fully depressed because lots of shit happened, even until I fell sick and absent for few days. My life has never been this difficult.. And I never actually cried so much in a month. in a year. in my entire life. 

Wow. Much tears. Such drama. Very sad. Wow.

FYI this year's October has a curse called the "break up chain" when many couples broke up this month (especially from my school). Guess what? It almost fucking got me and Bae! Oops I don't wanna talk about the long ass frustrating drama in this post, maybe next time. But luckily, we're still together.. God, can't even believe we're reaching 4 months with our LDR. Though things are kinda complicated now. 

Since I assume that things are getting better (hopefully), I should post something for the month October! Yeayy.. October is identic with "Fall and Halloween", sadly we don't have any of those celebrations in Indo.. We don't even have fall season, and October has been freaking hot everyday.

But every year, my friends and I always have this Halloween Party which has been held annually for 5 years straight since grade 7 until now, yes we still celebrate it even after graduating and going to different schools. We would make our own events, lot of fun games and of course the most anticipated "Night Scream" (sort of Haunted House adventure lol). We did everything by ourselves btw.

And of course the event organizers are the legendary "freaks" consisting me, Maarsja, Ivan, and Vanessa. Sadly now we no longer have Maarsja and Vanessa to join the HP :(

Plus, unfortunately for this year, we have to post pone it to next week due to our own business with their upcoming school event like PL Fair and Gonz Fest (same day smh). Btw I'm going to Gonz Fest tomorrow to watch MOCCA omg <3

Anywayy, this year Halloween I'm dressing up as GUMI in Matryoshka!! As seen at the beginning of this post. Yeap the crazy patched-up Matryoshka~ check out the song on top of my blog playlist or you can watch the MV on YouTube. 

I basically have no idea what to wear.. Last year I was dressing up as a hipster. Hahaha wtf. So I just simply put on my Matryoshka hoodie, clipped on some ombre green-blue hair clips, and drew some patches on my face. Then I took some pictures with weird poses, because that's the point of being "crazy & odd" but don't forget the SWAG (badass).

dem fangs

The rest of this post, I'm just gonna post some old throwback pictures of Halloween Party from the previous years.

 Happy Halloween, guys! 

Goodbye October!

Thanks for reading!!

31/Oct/2014

"Trick or Treat?"

You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping

I dreamt I held you in my arms

When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken

So I hung my head, and I cried

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me to love another,

You'll regret it all one day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

Please don't take my sunshine away..

Stranger's Note, to Self

Alright, so i've realized lately, or have been noticing that so many people are so unhappy.. People that you see everyday that have the brightest smile on their face go home and cry every night, and people who are completely immersed in the conversation you're having are actually just thinking about the fact that they're not allowed to eat today and people who you think are so beautiful that go home and tell themselves how ugly they are, or compare themselves to others who are "more beautiful than them" or have this horrible twisted idea that they're not good enough.. and it honestly pains me to see a beautiful young girl have to live with the doubt that maybe she's not pretty enough, maybe she isn't smart enough, maybe she isn't skinny enough because SOMETHING or SOMEONE convinced her that she wasn't. 

I'm so sick of people making fun and so because they're "ugly as fuck" or "fat as fuck" or something because maybe they don't have long hair and maybe their hip bones don't show and maybe they don't skip a meal, or maybe they do but it doesn't really make a difference.. I don't really know what to do because i'm starting to experience it with friends. 

Friends that i think are beautiful, friends that i think are so amazing, friends that believe are perfect not only because they're beautiful on the outside but some of the most amazing people i know.. 

Why is that so many people are allowed to be unhappy? 

Why does anyone think they have they have the right to make someone feel that way? 

So if you're reading this, which i mean, it's totally understandable if no one does, but i think you're perfect. You're beautiful, no matter what that guy said, no matter what your mom thinks, no matter what that bitch next to you says or implies when she talks about herself. 

You're perfect to me, and you need to start learning to be perfect yourself, because until you're happy with who you are and accept that maybe you're not going to look like those skinny ass models that show every one of their bones, and maybe you won't be a ten on every guy's type.. but you are YOU, and nobody else can say that except you. and YOU are great, and YOU can do great things, and YOU ARE good enough, and smart enough, and pretty enough to be happy. 

YOU just have to believe that.

08/Oct/2014

-Lauren Jauregui