Bae

but for now, I love Bae the most.

Starting from early of July, remember that jerk whom I've been talking about in this blog? Well, he's my boyfriend now. Hahahaha the irony? No, my long korean drama has reached its climax and still going on. I sill can't believe that finally I have my first boyfriend after 16 years and he's the object of my affection for almost a year now. Through all the memories and struggle, when I thought it's all hopeless then what I've been hoping for came true. Having someone I love as my first boyfriend.

Happy enough? Yes, however not long after, storm came again. After telling me that he might move to Bali, I was quite sure that he was only joking around and shit. However, the thing was true. Few days later he told me that he'll be moving for real. I was crying, sobbing so hard while we were calling on the phone. It was too soon for us to be separated in such long distance. Especially for me, my first boyfriend and it's a long distance relationship. I had thoughts of us going to school together everyday. Sadly, I could no longer watch him live at school, hang out together, dates, hugs and kisses. I'm all alone now.

"Time will fly." he said. At least he promised me to come back every holiday. So we spent everyday just by chatting, calling, and Skype. Even though most of the time the signal was so shit, but I realized that distance doesn't matter as long we have the spirit to make efforts for each other. Almost every night we would call until dawn with his stories and our naughty perverted talks haha. 

Sometimes things can get overly cheesy or overly romantic (awkward) hahah. When things got hard on one of us, there were countless times when "I miss you, so much" "I need a hug.." "I really want to hug you now" mentioned. 

Before all of this happened, I always pray to God for my relationship with him, let it be according to Your plan and give us the best as You want. 

So now I just think of this as one of His plans. If this is the best way for us then let us live this path. 

One night we were staring at the moon undirectly. Then I started thinking that maybe it's better for us this way. Distance somehow makes our love stronger, so that we think of each other everyday, what are you doing and stuff. Day by day we learn how to do our own business, hang out with our friends, family time, and school. Just imagine if we're inseparable here then we're just gonna spend everyday together which might make us bored and not having enough time for others.

Come to think about it once again, I feel more blessed in this way. I love him even more everyday, because we strengthen our bond as we live day by day with patience and trust. We might be far in distance but forever close at heart. 

Then by the time we meet again, we expressed what we've been keeping for, and that's the best part after the long period of LDR. Anyway, not anything pervert.

After so many stories, so many experiences, so many tears and laughters we've been through, I love you more each day.

No matter where you are, no matter how long it's been, I love you to the moon and back.

31/Jul/2014
"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."